Just a normal day. It was Monday, and I was getting back from a short weekend holiday. A perfect weekend behind, and it was good to be back. I needed to go and get my car from the garage, where it was getting fixed. My dad gave me a ride there, and I was happy to have my car back. I thanked dad, and said "bye, I'll see you in a couple of hours". I wasn't aware of, that two hours from now, I would have ruined my life for good...
Was it just written in the stars, or was it just me beiing in the wrong place at the wrong time. I'll never now for sure, but sadly I would bet on the last option. I could let you know why I think that, but I think it's better to not step on that path.
Long story short, I rode that horse, and I was quite pleased with him that day. He could be very spooky, and very quick to respond normally. That day I felt he listened and was more calm. I still feel sorry for that horse, when I think about what happened, because he must haave been so confused. In fact, I feel so freaking sorry for us both.
Something happened while cantering. I fell off, cracked my neck, and felt some pain. I remember the sound, when I hit the wall, that noise was terrible.
Next thing I know, I'm hoping the horse wouldn't crush me while cantering around me. And there we were, just the two of us. No one else around, I focused on breathing, but I knew I was getting more weak all the time, when my body was paralized. I couldn't even move my head. Two hours later the ambulance came. I don't remember much more of that day. But I realized I wasn't hitting the gym that evening.
Now, over a year has past, and I realize how hard this must have been on my family (especially mom&dad) and my closest friends. I ruined my life, but you have all been quite amazing!
Right now, I'm a broken soul, but I now you guys will help me heal. <3 day by day, so don't give up on me just yet. This hasn't been easy, but someday it will hurt less. I still think the journey will be worth it, and of course it will! We all are given just this one life, so make it count! Do the things that make you happy. In a second you can lose it all. I'm happy and proud of myself that I did all that riding, teaching and sport-stuff, believed in myself and trusted my feelings. I'm sad that so much is taken away, but I'm also grateful for a second opportunity. But I hate it, when the sadness is trying to take over everything good. But it's the game of life. Sometimes you lose, sometimes you win.
The last year has been like a hurricane, and right now I'm picking up the pieces that are left. Slowly, I'm sure I'll build something new. But my mind is still trapped in the past,
But I'll rock'n roll forward in my wheelchair (btw; you can never understand how much music means to me, sometimes it's the only thing that makes any sense..).
Thanks for reading<3
Was it just written in the stars, or was it just me beiing in the wrong place at the wrong time. I'll never now for sure, but sadly I would bet on the last option. I could let you know why I think that, but I think it's better to not step on that path.
Long story short, I rode that horse, and I was quite pleased with him that day. He could be very spooky, and very quick to respond normally. That day I felt he listened and was more calm. I still feel sorry for that horse, when I think about what happened, because he must haave been so confused. In fact, I feel so freaking sorry for us both.
Something happened while cantering. I fell off, cracked my neck, and felt some pain. I remember the sound, when I hit the wall, that noise was terrible.
Next thing I know, I'm hoping the horse wouldn't crush me while cantering around me. And there we were, just the two of us. No one else around, I focused on breathing, but I knew I was getting more weak all the time, when my body was paralized. I couldn't even move my head. Two hours later the ambulance came. I don't remember much more of that day. But I realized I wasn't hitting the gym that evening.
Now, over a year has past, and I realize how hard this must have been on my family (especially mom&dad) and my closest friends. I ruined my life, but you have all been quite amazing!
Right now, I'm a broken soul, but I now you guys will help me heal. <3 day by day, so don't give up on me just yet. This hasn't been easy, but someday it will hurt less. I still think the journey will be worth it, and of course it will! We all are given just this one life, so make it count! Do the things that make you happy. In a second you can lose it all. I'm happy and proud of myself that I did all that riding, teaching and sport-stuff, believed in myself and trusted my feelings. I'm sad that so much is taken away, but I'm also grateful for a second opportunity. But I hate it, when the sadness is trying to take over everything good. But it's the game of life. Sometimes you lose, sometimes you win.
The last year has been like a hurricane, and right now I'm picking up the pieces that are left. Slowly, I'm sure I'll build something new. But my mind is still trapped in the past,
But I'll rock'n roll forward in my wheelchair (btw; you can never understand how much music means to me, sometimes it's the only thing that makes any sense..).
Thanks for reading<3
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